Dissappointed but Not... s'more to come?

I have the opportunity to go to Papua New Guinea.

I let my work know last week and yesterday my boss let me know that the request to leave was not accepted. Disappointed... I kind let it pervade my every action and thought this morning. I know that if something is supposed to happen then God works in miraculous ways. God is bigger than any opportunity or problem or anything. Hey God may have something he wants me to do or learn here and now and I don’t see it. But I am still bummed. God please open my eyes because I give you my life and I don’t know what I am doing.

I do have to add that God definitely blessed me today during my lunch with Serena. It was a comfort to talk to someone that in seeking God in her all and waiting on his plans. I love that God does things that we need and comforts us even when we don’t realize it in the moment. He always knows what I need before I ask him and he gives it. I feel like God does this for me all the time and I am reminded again how great my God is. I think to myself... "Oh man, thanks God. You are faithful. You are present. You are my God. I am learning to trust you in this now. Okay."

I guess there is s’ more to come this year... I just don't see it yet. It’s like searching for more marshmallows to roast in the bonfire in the dark. Its dark because I forgot the flashlight. And I have one.

*Key to my illustration:
s’ more: God's bigger plan
marshmallows: steps towards the plan God has for me
bonfire/flashlight: seeing through Gods eyes, he is the one that gives you sight to see what he desires for you, he is the light in our life, our creator of the more in our life