Putting on the Gear for the Game

In my where am I next gear up mode I am listening to Mike play on the guitar. He just started learning a Ben Fold's song that sissy gave me on my latest CD. I love him so much! Just found out that Americas Next Model season starts in a few weeks and I cant wait. This show is a secret love. Oh and I just made a peach pie because my newest desire is to make something new and creative every week. So far I have experimented in the kitchen and with my clothes. Homemade pasta soon or maybe something crazy!!!

... its the end of summer. I found out yesterday that I have a potential job here in SD. So now I guess my new adventure in sunny (it was almost 95 degrees today) San Diego has begun. I am thinking about what my goals are before I head off to Grad School next year in CHINA!!! Well that is if I get in :)

Coco again...

I forgot I had a blog!!! So here I am at HUME working as an OE instructor. My class is Signs of the Creator so I get to talk about the outdoors I love and my God. Its a blessing to be here for sure.

Early this week I broke down to tears after hearing the morning devotion from 1 Peter. My boss ended with sayings how we need to find the balance between not being completed absorbed and not being a freak. I thought about it the past months at Thousand Pines I have not allowed myself to be challenged and have lost some of me in Christ. I just went about the day in my daily routine and that was it. Our God and Creator is amazing and nature exclaims him. Psalm 19:1-4 tells us that if we just stop and look at the details of life you see evidence of our Creator.

My goal is to not lose myself in a job and remind myself daily of Gods unfailing love. I want to surrender my all to him in all I do. I slowly let the routine of life overtake me but I am awake now. I love you Lord. Glory you to you.

Crazy Rolling... like a log on CAF Lane.

So who would of thought that in 9 months I would:

1. Fall in love with my ROCK family. Love all the youth I work with and now consider them in my decisions.
2. Be given a chance to go to Papua New Guinea with HUME. Be denied a request to leave by my work. Become super discouraged with my passions and goals in life.
3. Start House Hunting to live with Felice and Molly and my ROCK sister Serena
3. Decide to try out for Disneyland again to work at Tokyo Disney and get my sister to try out.
4. Be shown an opportunity to work for an Outdoor Education school during the school year calendar starting in two weeks. Thanks to my sister for finding this randomly. It’s a God thing I know.
5. Plan a Golden Birthday Bash in a few days for my sister with a Swanky 1920's theme.
6. Directly know 9 people that are looking for work… Unemployment rate is 6.9%!!!!

All in the month of September… life is crazy. And its only the 8th. Crazy.

Dissappointed but Not... s'more to come?

I have the opportunity to go to Papua New Guinea.

I let my work know last week and yesterday my boss let me know that the request to leave was not accepted. Disappointed... I kind let it pervade my every action and thought this morning. I know that if something is supposed to happen then God works in miraculous ways. God is bigger than any opportunity or problem or anything. Hey God may have something he wants me to do or learn here and now and I don’t see it. But I am still bummed. God please open my eyes because I give you my life and I don’t know what I am doing.

I do have to add that God definitely blessed me today during my lunch with Serena. It was a comfort to talk to someone that in seeking God in her all and waiting on his plans. I love that God does things that we need and comforts us even when we don’t realize it in the moment. He always knows what I need before I ask him and he gives it. I feel like God does this for me all the time and I am reminded again how great my God is. I think to myself... "Oh man, thanks God. You are faithful. You are present. You are my God. I am learning to trust you in this now. Okay."

I guess there is s’ more to come this year... I just don't see it yet. It’s like searching for more marshmallows to roast in the bonfire in the dark. Its dark because I forgot the flashlight. And I have one.

*Key to my illustration:
s’ more: God's bigger plan
marshmallows: steps towards the plan God has for me
bonfire/flashlight: seeing through Gods eyes, he is the one that gives you sight to see what he desires for you, he is the light in our life, our creator of the more in our life

Having Nothing...

"Having nothing... " Never reserve anything. Pour out the best you have, and always be poor. Never be diplomatic and careful about the treasure God gives. This is poverty triumphant.

Oswald Chambers


So every morning I read a little from Oswald Chambers writings and many times I am jazzed up from the thinking that it spurs up in me. I wanted to quote the end part of today's devo because I love the reminder it is for me. Man, I want to be resplendent! I want my whole life and everything in me giving glory to God. People hold back in fear and uncertainty when comes to being used by God or being brilliant in their own life for lamey reasons. Why are people so hesitant? God wants to use them to show love and to love on them too. This time, this place, here is not eternal... there is so much to experience... so many people to rock and be blessed by! There is so much more then just yourself. Life is bigger than me and my problems. When people take the time to pour a little crazy joy it starts a chain effect. I want to be a chain starter! I want to be a cup of Jesus coffee for anyone around me. I want to share Jesus with people.

We can be such a beautiful light to the world when...

we slow down and meet people where there at.

we let God move us and not people.

pray right now not after we try and figure it out first.

when we share a hello. or a smile.

we pour it all out without hesitation.

Forget excuses. Its true that life is not happy-happy-joy-joy and people are not perfect but God is. He makes all things good in his perfect timing. In joy and pain he is the same. So I ask myself today... how am I making an impact on Gods most precious creation... people.

Read it for yourself: http://myutmost.org/06/0626.html

today is a new day

So i have decided to start blogging... I think it was something that was said in the admin. meeting on Monday. Yeah... one of the speakers told us to blog our hearts out and look for professional, educational, and hobbie-type blogs. Or something like that. So today is a new day to do something snazzy. Next week is my birthday and I want my 23rd year to filled with adventure and change. Sign me up God... open my eyes to where you want me to be... atune my ears to your voice... I want to be in a place where my life, my all can fully glorify to God. All my life I have been a pretty careful decision maker... maybe even too slow to make a move. I just want to do things right. And I have. With this next year ahead of me I think I need to remember that God wants to rock my socks off and in addition to listening for his voice... I need to go do it.